I am... in a state of emotional wreckage.



Whatever I thought I was and I could.... is now just a bubble drifting away and ready to disappear in thin air in moments due.



What is going through my mind?



I don't know. I can't seem to think. My life just gushes past me and I get swept away with the flow, bruised and grazed along with the gush.



I feel empty and lost again, fearful of myself and others.



Every effort I make to do something gets squashed. Whatever I planned to do, does not come to light, and when I see that others are getting ahead of me, I think back of the pact I made with God and I feel guilty to have said what I said and to be in this place.



I just cannot keep up with my life, my table is in a mess, I'm late for all occasions, work, classes, etc



I cannot keep up with all the homework that has been given to me, I cannot keep up with following up with people, and it does hurt when people pressurize or laugh at me because I forget things.



I am a living zombie, unable to know how to feel at certain points in time, and the only thing that keeps me alive and breathing is my food and my sleep.