Hello, old and familiar place.

Its been nearly a year since I posted something.

I'm back to this familiar zone of crushed feelings again. Lots of changes happened since then, lots of plans to be carried out and lots of expectations going on.

In the midst of it, my soul slipped away in time, in neglect.

The familiar and strangely attractive pain of loneliness has left my life. My life has been filled with joy, love, comfort and indulgence. But yet, a part of it misses that familiar feeling of the solitude that I could find in the depth of the night with the Spirit. Or perhaps, I haven been disciplined enough to find that solitude, have not been solemn enough to enter my secret garden again.

What do I really want in my life? What do I purpose for? What am I bothered about? What am I not doing? What is going on in my heart that I am not processing?

Everything's a blur. Nothing is firm. The Spirit is absent.

Need to get it back again.