HELLO NEW YEAR!!!!!!!

No matter what, I'm going to welcome the new year! 2006! Well, even if the recent years have not been good for the world as a whole, I'm not gonna sit there and sulk at life (as I aways do)
No matter the outcome, what will happen is not within my control. What for make life harder than it is?
New Year resolutions:

1. I will love thy neighbour as thy self
2. I will not sulk/whine or be extra sensitive to people's reaction/ treatment towards me
3. I will get on with my life and not take days/ weeks to mull over things that will not happen/have yet to happen
4. I will get over with my past.
5. I will learn to trust myself and my judgements better

Have not been writing for the past few weeks... as usual was in a state of confusion. Unsure if myself, unsure of my directions, unsure of the future. And I felt a lot of disappointments in me. Disappointed with how I handled certain friendships, disappointed at how I let friendships drift apart from me, disappointed that certain friendships are just not meant to be. Its disgusting. I never had so much problems with stuffs like this before. Maybe because my social circle expanded. Maybe its because I'm dealing with friends of both genders now. (Well I din have much guy friends in the past) Maybe I just have nothing to worry about and I find this stupid thing to keep me occupied.

Earlier this afternoon, I lay in bed, with the aircon on, and the rain splattered against my windows. My room was dark and gray, I lay there and pondered and pondered and pondered. And suddenly I sat up on my bed telling myself: That does it! I'm not going to drown myself in self pity, self sorrow thinking that I am the most pathethic thing in the world. I am so, so fortunate to even be here! I ( with God's grace) have brought myself this far in life, academically, spiritually, emotionally, physically, I am not going to lead myself elsewhere! I am not going to wait for people to give me instructions, or tell me what to do. Its time I made a stand in my life. Its my life that I'm leading. Not yours, not his or hers. I have to learn to take in shit, accept failures, and get over with all the good and bad things in life. The world is not perfect afterall...

Okay, i feel good letting this off my chest for now. It would be very inappropriate if I did not leave a mark here for the new year.... Amy approaches her adult year in 2006!!!! YAY!!! R(A) movies!!!! Huh.. erm.. ahem.. *look poised*